Things currently whirling around in my head ...

Monday, February 24, 2014

1) Procrastination - I totally have a long Physics assignment to do yet I have no energy to do it ... 

2) How the heck is Downton Abbey already over??!!??

3) I am sitting here trying to gain the strength to at least do something useful and straighten my hair.

4) I blame my lack of caring and eagerness to get anything done on PMS. 

Thank you all for your sweet comments on my return to the blog world.

Let me [Re]Introduce Myself

Friday, February 21, 2014

I feel  I know I haven't blogged in a LONG time.  
Remember me?
I'm that girl who started blogging here as Shia - for some crazy reason.
I started this blog in 2009.  2009?!? So much has changed since then!
When I started here ... I started to write about things I thought about ... liked ... wondered ... you get the point.  So it was essentially the world according to me.  I loved my blog and even though I had under 10 followers, I didn't care.  I wrote practically everyday and things got better and better and then one day, I had 50 followers - including people I had never met ... then 75 then I was cheer-zing to 100!  It just got better and better.  Sure as my blog grew ... I progressed and things I blogged about changed.
I feel like my blog became a little too superficial.  I feel like it became all about clothes and buying stuff.  Perhaps for a moment, I changed too, I only cared about clothes and buying MORE clothes and having cuter and cuter outfits.  Then things changed again.  Real life changes.  Scary ones that will ultimately be the best changes of my life.  First off, I got married something I never thought I would ever do.  I just always felt as if I was too independent of a person to ever get married but even before that happened.  I decided a major thing in my life.  I didn't want to be an attorney.  I know that sounds like so what no biggie.  Um yeah totally a biggie when my whole academic life since like middle school was pointed in the direction of being an attorney.  No turning back ... I already missed that fork in the road and it was no longer in the rear view mirror.  So I was in limbo ... working in the legal world and constantly being reminded that I didn't want to be there.  So I just pushed it down and pushed it down to where my life didn't ALWAYS feel consumed by my miserable dead end.  So I started blogging.  Because there was this glimmer of maybe I could be a writer ... a dream of writing for a magazine.  I thought ... I can write the same types of stuff ... heck that is what my blog is all about ... random things I constantly have whirling around in my mind.  So my blog was a fun outlet that I could talk about and heck even work on at that miserable dead end.  So fast forward back to getting married.  I really never thought I would find someone like Paul.  I know that is like the most clique thing to say but it is the truth.  He is my best friend.  I love him more than I have ever loved anyone in my life.  So when a minor work change occurred he was SUPER supportive.  The risk didn't pay off and for a split second I thought about turning back to that dead end.  Then the greatest thing happened ... Paul was actually my voice of reason.  Instead of having to make decisions on my own and fighting my way through all the difficult decisions ... he was there for me.  Long story short ... I am in my second semester of fulfilling pre-reqs for some healthcare programs I am going to apply to and I no longer feel as if my whole academic life was a waste.  It makes my current GPA ... KICK ASS!  So there's the best silver lining.  Soon I will be doing something (depending on what program accepts me) that I never even considered doing and I couldn't be happier.  So why all the crickets here?  Well ... I just felt like my blog went down a path of no return.  I felt like there was nothing to blog about anymore.  I don't care about the same things.  That superficial stuff just doesn't even remotely excite me anymore and I thought it wasn't fair to just change my blog.  I mean that's why you followed me ... right?  Well I hope you are yelling at your computer screen ... WRONG!  I just got in that blog slump where I've been MIA for so long ... how do you get your groove back?  I mean please I've got tons of attention grabbing greatness that I can throw up here but a cute outfit is the least of my worries.  So after all that I've just rambled ... I am here to tell you.  That (1) I am back.  FOR REALS! and (2) things will be a tad different ... well not different but more like the way it used to be.  I wrote for me and for you not just what I thought you wanted.  Does that make sense?  

Lastly, I just want to say that I've missed my blog and I've missed all of you.
So thanks for sticking with me ... I hope all will be back to normal ASAP!

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